Maladjusted humans

I’m seriously about to lose my mind.

Yeah, hi. I’m back. Back from not posting anything for a year and some change. And there’s a lot to update. The bullet points:

• Barack Hussein Obama is the first (and currently, the only) Black president to win the presidency TWICE;
•  There was a woman I was dating around the last time I wrote anything. She and I broke up. I take the blame for it;
• I’m still training in the martial arts; however…
• I’m constantly inundated with work. Work would have me rip out my hair if I had any to rip out…

Actually, I’m gonna go into that above bullet point for a bit. I’m frustrated enough where I have to write about it. I don’t have the capacity to think of some witty lines for it. Maybe later, but not now. Yeah, and I’m gonna post my thoughts on this online forum. I fell off from that as life became more complicated. There’s also this unsavory occurrence where I posted my thoughts online—much like I’m doing here and now—and it was on a very sensitive topic that I should have discussed with my girlfriend at the time. Several times in my head, my better judgment told me not to post it and talk it out with her. I went against that better judgment. Naturally, she broke up with me (there’s a lot of that going in my life—but that’s later). I know I’m forgiven, but that’s one hell of a thorn in my side. So, I have to be careful about what I post because my work deals with a very sensitive population.

With that said, there’s worse things posted and exposed online. The FBI just shut down a Web site about mermaids. I don’t think my written thoughts are going to destroy the fabric or trust of the public.  I post enough on Facebook and Twitter, and if the government/employer had a real problem with it, they know where to find me.

When you got an AWOL kid and you’re thinking, “It’s not a matter of if, but when he gets seriously hurt or killed”, it makes the shit real. I, for one, can barely believe that I have nearly two weeks of disturbingly haywire activity. Half of my troubles come from the kids that are stuck on stupid. The other half comes from the paperwork that comes with said youth stuck on stupid. And everyone above me wants the work done either immediately or 1-2 days later.

This is the problem of working with maladjusted humans. Those working with them have a lot of responsibility on their shoulders. Everyone outside of the grunt work that is juvenile probation is making decisions that never seem to be made with the foot soldiers’ input. And there is the money…yeah…if you’re not making a profit, then you’re being given money and you have to prove your worth in order to continue being given money. It’s proven through numbers and calculations and scientific data. If you can’t prove through either mode that your work is worth being funded, you either lose money or become defunded.

As the entire above paragraph happens, I’m in my office wondering how to juggle everything and practice solid time management concepts when the shitstorms hit hard. I’m demanded to supervise every youth and young adult I’m responsible for without fail when time is never on my side. And for the record, I could have done work from home. In the time I’ve taken to write this post, I could have gotten some work done. Sure. And how would I get compensated for the time taken outside of work to get the work done? Overtime? More comp time? Do I look like I would be willing to work any more than the 8-10 hours already put in?

Yeah…I don’t think so.

And with that, I feel better. I’m out.