A month away and a lot to say...

Wow. Since September 20, I haven't posted anything.

Strangely, I remember a lot of what I've wanted to say for the past month. Just haven't had the time to put it down...no, that's not completely true. I didn't feel like putting the energy into crafting my raw feelings into polished sentences and paragraphs for the world to see.

I also couldn't bring myself to write because of those raw feelings. But, I'm in a place where I can do that now.

A lot has went down since I last posted. On September 21, Troy Davis was executed in Georgia after the US Supreme Court did not grant the man another stay. I still believe that those red flags consisting of 7 out of 9 "eyewitnesses" changing or recanting their testimony should have been addressed in the form of a retrial. Throw in some fingerprints data, DNA, some'n. But, that didn't happen and Troy Davis was lynched before midnight of 9/22.

I was determined to write my opinion on it. It wasn't going to be extensive; I just wanted to share my thoughts on it. Link some articles here and there, throw in a timeline of events leading up to the execution from a news agency outside of America that had a better understanding of the workings of America than America apparently did. As you can tell, it never came to pass. Perhaps it was for the best because I'm sure plenty of folks have done so within days after the execution. On 9/22, something else was on my mind and I had never felt so numb upon learning the news.

My grandfather died.

It was as recent as maybe two weeks ago when I actually felt the hurt from that loss. From hearing the news to the funeral to the days after, I ran on auxiliary. I wasn't emotionally connected to anything. The only thing I knew I had to do was be strong. I learned this lesson 6 years ago and it kept reinforcing itself within that period. Prior to that, my godsister's mother also died earlier in that week. The end of September was rough for myself and my fam'. What especially hurt about this was that my grandfather was one of the few men I respected enough that I would want to see me getting married, have children and whatever else happens as I get old and such. I know he'll be watching me from Heaven and that's one of the most comforting things about this...

Eh, this will have to do. But stay tuned. October has been an eventful month, too! :)